Wednesday, December 30, 2009

think i know why now.

'cos i dont really do cool.

i do more cute and adorable.

retarded.

bwahaha.

but because i think cute/adorable + cool = perfect

and perfect doesn't really exist in real life

then

gah i dont even wanna think about it

but perfection can exist

things can be perfect in your eyes, even though they can't be any worse in others'

2:31 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.

actually

really

v v frankly

i find his language a tad immature

ahhahahahahahahahaha

but it still doesnt aid in my (vain and helpless and whatever comes to your mind) attempts at getting over him [:

mugging w joan and cheryl today (rather, yesterday) was pretty..

okay i was gonna say it was pretty useful but hahahahahaha i finished only a few math qns and i didnt even complete my case study

gah, been away from academics related stuff far too long

didnt even complete the workshadowing thing

sidetrack: i realise i'm pretty good at guessing stuff (x

yeah and we witnessed this couple hankypanky-ing at macs ahhaha

the point is they were in our direct line of vision

direct view

whatever

that aint the point

the point is we lift our heads, we see them doing, well, use your imagination

though, okay maybe what was really going through my head during the first half of the whole thing was along the line of "eh the girl looks like she's patting her dog the guy looks like he's patting his dog blablabla".

but after that..

lol.

to put it bluntly, they should have just gone and gotten a room

total privacy (:

aint that good. tsk.

pda like theirs should be banned, seriously

esp from areas where people are trying to mug

and esp when it's just 10days away from school

cuz it's v v distracting

tsk

ohman i forgot to ask cheryl if i gave her nightmares last night from that pic i showed her

DIDYOU?

right am i evil or what ==

thursday's pretty jampacked

wait a minute.

why am i not counting down on thursday while everyone else is?

i'll be mugging!

goodness.

there goes new year's eve.

school should open later.

so that we have more time to recover from our holiday mood

not that i really think we'll attempt recovering.

ahhaha

but my progress w the holiday assignment aint really something to be proud of

woohoo

1:51 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.

Monday, December 28, 2009

everything feels surreal, really

i thought life was going well, not too great but well enough

apparently

maybe not

gah

i realised this woman..

goodness

right maybe i've never really liked her but i never knew she's a bit like snorky

whats wrong w today

12:01 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

he won't know will he

people know, but they don't understand

while i believe in what i ought not to believe in..

i don't know.

i find it ridiculous myself at times.

while i told myself i won't ask for anything..

bla

today i've been greedy

i've been thinking about a lot of possibilities again

stupid, people might say

i know it is

but i can't help it

seems that belief's proving its existence

however ridiculous it might seem

gah

i don't know why i feel that way either

i wanna lose 5 kg and go down to 22/23 inches by feb

that's 1 and half months for me

whatever it takes

can i?

not yet right?

how?

12:53 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

been wanting to blog darn long ago but was too lazy to come up here teehee

I'M HERE CUZ I'M HAPPY :D:D

i swear it's easily one of the happiest days of my life can ahhaha

and anyway i realise two things.

i) i should trust myself more

ii) i should stop worrying unduly unless i want wrinkles white hair and depression

iii) we cherish things a hell lot more after we think we've lost them and realise we haven't, or after we lose something and gain them back.

i know it's not often we get second chances so i'll really really treasure this TRUST ME WOOHOO~

i don't even dare hope for anything more lalala

so long as you don't disappear from my life in any way

FOR ONCE I'M THANKFUL FOR WHOEVER'SUPTHERE (aka wut)

woohoo~

xoxo

wut!

for today i love you!

until you decide to make a joke out of my life again.

XDXD

i'm actually thankful for that scare you gave me.

lalala~

the only bad thing is that my efforts and my best ever progress made in getting over him have all waved byebye to me ==

11:23 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

小星星

王心凌

城市裡小星星

稀疏的亮晶晶

太多光吃掉他們的身影

就像我愛上你隱沒在燈海裡

你眼中只看繁華的夜景

我的愛藏在你的背影裡

想要笑著堅定的恆心

天黑的時候我遠遠陪著你

再小的閃爍也努力放光明

當有天我在夜空裡面偶爾被發現

希望我眨眼能感動你視線

想把小星星排成愛的圖形

為你的天空點綴一些驚奇

即使像流星一閃而過寂寞也情願

不求你看見只想為你發光永遠

遇見你小星星

孤單的濕淋淋

你躲在有人陪伴的傘底

就像我總被你遺忘在晴空裡

月光下才有機會想念你

我的愛藏在你的背影裡

想要笑著堅定的恆心

天黑的時候我遠遠陪著你

再小的閃爍也努力放光明

當有天我在夜空裡面偶爾被發現

希望我眨眼能感動你視線

想把小星星排成愛的圖形

為你的天空點綴一些驚奇

即使像流星一閃而過寂寞也情願

不求你看見只想為你發光永遠

天黑的時候我遠遠陪著你

再小的閃爍也努力放光明

當有天我在夜空裡面偶爾被發現

希望我眨眼能感動你視線

想把小星星排成愛的圖形

為你的天空點綴一些驚奇

即使像流星一閃而過寂寞也情願

不求你看見只想為你發光永遠

10:07 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.