Wednesday, July 29, 2009
j2s leaving soon.
not good.
even though it doesn't mean we can't stay in contact with one another.
urgh.
not good.
even though it doesn't mean we can't stay in contact with one another.
urgh.
9:31 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
it's pretty official already i guess.
news travelling pretty fast.
haha.
news travelling pretty fast.
haha.
9:31 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
fk people who think they're super popular.
9:30 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
i left a small piece of myself in the hall for the school to remember me by after i leave (x
and i finally finally told someone in co i don't really feel comfy with telling things to about the possibility of my stepping down from co.
it feels more official somewhat.
i don't know what to think though.
gotta make a decision by 1330 tomorrow.
boo ):
i'm glad to see you back in school.
despite it being a 1 second glance from afar.
(:
and i finally finally told someone in co i don't really feel comfy with telling things to about the possibility of my stepping down from co.
it feels more official somewhat.
i don't know what to think though.
gotta make a decision by 1330 tomorrow.
boo ):
i'm glad to see you back in school.
despite it being a 1 second glance from afar.
(:
6:57 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Monday, July 27, 2009
so
not seeing you around
it actually worries me
haha
what a joke huh
it's not as though you care anyway
fk.
blogger still aint working properly
!@#$%^&*()
not seeing you around
it actually worries me
haha
what a joke huh
it's not as though you care anyway
fk.
blogger still aint working properly
!@#$%^&*()
3:14 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
是。
人世間根本就沒有什麽人人常掛在嘴邊的“愛”。
就連社區服務也是爲了分數才肯做的。
這樣，確定這些人有愛心嗎？
我不覺得。
怎麼人人都只爲了自己的利益去做事情啊
there's only one word i have for this: PATHETIC.
what's becoming of the world man.
有的時候我覺得 “欸，這項活動好像不錯，意義重大，能幫助他人” 所以跑去問看有沒有人想陪我參與
結果咧？
“有沒有 CIP hours?”
tmd 一定要對自己有利的事才會去做嗎？
說真的，如果問的回覆僅有如此
那我寧願自己去做
做義工，真有那麼委屈嗎？
..
自己有興趣的事也是一樣
因為自己平常不愛一個人參加活動嘛
所以常會找朋友結伴去參加各種各樣的東西
有的時候，一問，回覆馬上是 "what benefits do i get?"
諸如此類的回答啦
氣不氣人？
嗤。
對，我承認，我也該訓練自己的膽量，不能總等有朋友陪伴才去參加東西
可是！
大家也不用這樣吧
自己的利益，真的那麼重要嗎？
如果你說沒興趣我還能接受
不過，利益！？
i'm disgusted.
人世間根本就沒有什麽人人常掛在嘴邊的“愛”。
就連社區服務也是爲了分數才肯做的。
這樣，確定這些人有愛心嗎？
我不覺得。
怎麼人人都只爲了自己的利益去做事情啊
there's only one word i have for this: PATHETIC.
what's becoming of the world man.
有的時候我覺得 “欸，這項活動好像不錯，意義重大，能幫助他人” 所以跑去問看有沒有人想陪我參與
結果咧？
“有沒有 CIP hours?”
tmd 一定要對自己有利的事才會去做嗎？
說真的，如果問的回覆僅有如此
那我寧願自己去做
做義工，真有那麼委屈嗎？
..
自己有興趣的事也是一樣
因為自己平常不愛一個人參加活動嘛
所以常會找朋友結伴去參加各種各樣的東西
有的時候，一問，回覆馬上是 "what benefits do i get?"
諸如此類的回答啦
氣不氣人？
嗤。
對，我承認，我也該訓練自己的膽量，不能總等有朋友陪伴才去參加東西
可是！
大家也不用這樣吧
自己的利益，真的那麼重要嗎？
如果你說沒興趣我還能接受
不過，利益！？
i'm disgusted.
今天的光陰你不會把握，
猶如今天有錢卻買不到東西的可悲。
7:20 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
right.
I. HAVE. TO. SAY. THIS.
i hate it when people can't [rather, REFUSE TO] see where they're wrong.
i hate it when these people go around pretending they're right.
i hate it when people go around expecting everyone to be nice to them when they're mean to people.
i hate childish people.
i hate arrogant people.
i hate people who think everyone else's lives revolve around theirs.
because nobody should live for another person.
you wanna live for someone else, fine, that's your own problem.
you think people should live for you, fine, whatever, that's just what you think. nobody has to live the way you expect them to.
do realise not everything goes your way.
nothing can ever go as according to one person's will.
even if they do and you make one stupid decision time aint gonna turn back so you can make a different decision.
yeah you suckas i've had enough.
i realise i have a lot of hate in me.
hate for the world and how people are turning out to be.
hate for how everyone seems to think so bloody highly of themselves.
i'm pretty sure since the moment i started having my own thoughts and feelings i've never really had any love for anyone.
all there is in me, is just hate.
if you reckon you can do something about it, fk you come and try then.
it's not like i haven't tried to do something about that hatred and disgust within me.
it's just that everytime i try and search for some good in people, they just disappoint me time and again by being that selfish person they are.
yeah nobody should live for anyone else.
but that doesn't mean you shouldn't be considerate towards others.
and that consideration?
i don't really think there's really somebody who has it.
nobody should live for anyone else.
fine. continue being that selfish person you are.
because fk you i've had enough.
i'm just gonna let that hate list grow and then maybe one day on my death bed or the day before my death i'll hold a celebratory party to celebrate that i'm gonna leave the world FINALLY.
and another thing.
when i cry, it's normally because i'm furious with myself.
furious with my stupidity for trusting people.
either that or when i'm touched about something.
when i see something humane happening among mankind.
which is pretty rare.
so yeah i cry over my stupidity and touching scenes/situations [WHATEVER YOU CALL IT.].
never over another person.
there. i've finally answered why i can't really cry anymore.
cuz there's really nothing much that is touching about the society we live in nowadays.
and also because i don't really trust anyone else anymore.
thats ace to know aint it.
{EDIT\}
oh yeah.
neither do i like people who are damn fake, as you call it.
做作的人，麻煩離我遠一點！
I. HAVE. TO. SAY. THIS.
i hate it when people can't [rather, REFUSE TO] see where they're wrong.
i hate it when these people go around pretending they're right.
i hate it when people go around expecting everyone to be nice to them when they're mean to people.
i hate childish people.
i hate arrogant people.
i hate people who think everyone else's lives revolve around theirs.
because nobody should live for another person.
you wanna live for someone else, fine, that's your own problem.
you think people should live for you, fine, whatever, that's just what you think. nobody has to live the way you expect them to.
do realise not everything goes your way.
nothing can ever go as according to one person's will.
even if they do and you make one stupid decision time aint gonna turn back so you can make a different decision.
yeah you suckas i've had enough.
i realise i have a lot of hate in me.
hate for the world and how people are turning out to be.
hate for how everyone seems to think so bloody highly of themselves.
i'm pretty sure since the moment i started having my own thoughts and feelings i've never really had any love for anyone.
all there is in me, is just hate.
if you reckon you can do something about it, fk you come and try then.
it's not like i haven't tried to do something about that hatred and disgust within me.
it's just that everytime i try and search for some good in people, they just disappoint me time and again by being that selfish person they are.
yeah nobody should live for anyone else.
but that doesn't mean you shouldn't be considerate towards others.
and that consideration?
i don't really think there's really somebody who has it.
nobody should live for anyone else.
fine. continue being that selfish person you are.
because fk you i've had enough.
i'm just gonna let that hate list grow and then maybe one day on my death bed or the day before my death i'll hold a celebratory party to celebrate that i'm gonna leave the world FINALLY.
and another thing.
when i cry, it's normally because i'm furious with myself.
furious with my stupidity for trusting people.
either that or when i'm touched about something.
when i see something humane happening among mankind.
which is pretty rare.
so yeah i cry over my stupidity and touching scenes/situations [WHATEVER YOU CALL IT.].
never over another person.
there. i've finally answered why i can't really cry anymore.
cuz there's really nothing much that is touching about the society we live in nowadays.
and also because i don't really trust anyone else anymore.
thats ace to know aint it.
{EDIT\}
oh yeah.
neither do i like people who are damn fake, as you call it.
做作的人，麻煩離我遠一點！
只有懶惰是懶人的專利，
世上豈有不勞而獲的東西。
6:55 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
eh shit now i'm not on LOA!?
5:46 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
seriously
trust me on this
the next time the doctor asks you if you can take really really bitter medicine
please
tell him no
why?
well. i thought i can tahan bitter stuff (well i do like that bittergourd with fish thingy quite a bit ahhaha) and so i told the doc yeah should be alright
the first time he asked me i said i can
the medicine turned out okay. just tasted a little weird
when i went back for the appointment he asked me the same question and i said yeah should be alright, thinking it can't be too bad
and guess what
the medicine's fking bitter
yeah i said the ef word
it really is darn bitter
and im like, eating yoghurt trying to kill the bitter taste
!@#$%^&*()
2 down, 3 more dosages to go
urgh
trust me on this
the next time the doctor asks you if you can take really really bitter medicine
please
tell him no
why?
well. i thought i can tahan bitter stuff (well i do like that bittergourd with fish thingy quite a bit ahhaha) and so i told the doc yeah should be alright
the first time he asked me i said i can
the medicine turned out okay. just tasted a little weird
when i went back for the appointment he asked me the same question and i said yeah should be alright, thinking it can't be too bad
and guess what
the medicine's fking bitter
yeah i said the ef word
it really is darn bitter
and im like, eating yoghurt trying to kill the bitter taste
!@#$%^&*()
2 down, 3 more dosages to go
urgh
不懂裝懂，永世飯桶；
不學不問，迷迷糊糊；
學了問了，清清楚楚。
不學不問，迷迷糊糊；
學了問了，清清楚楚。
5:15 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
i realise i come here when i find nothing to do online ==
and the forum aint exactly updating fast enough for me (:
or rather, the forum aint exactly updating interesting topics fast enough (x
last night was.. .. .. ..
yeah.
speechless.
anyway, i got out of it.
unscathed.
hopefully.
ahhaha~
tuesday probably HP with the queens?
yup.
i'm seriously becoming broke.
!@#$%^&*()
2 more weeks before my allowance comes in.
starting to monitor what i put in my mouth.
i've really gotta shed the weight i've put on the past year plus.
so sitting in my fridge..
one packet of merci petits mixed and 4 little cups of yoghurt.
2 low fat 2 non-fat.
right chocolates and yoghurt ==
chocolates.
hahahahahaha.
okay i have a reason for that okay i put one or two chocolates in my mouth after drinking this really bitter medicine.
i need to get that taste out of my mouth see.
otherwise i think i'll just puke.
but i realise the chocolates aint really working.
which is not good.
so i've got to work something else out.
meanwhile the chocolates'll have to do i guess.
don't ask me why i'm on medication again - don't feel like explaining.
long story ahhaha~
but yeah, i think i'm coming down with a cough.
which is not good at all.
i don't like coughs.
they interupt me talking.
and then i can't talk properly.
i realise i'm a very contradictory person.
as pointed out by qianning.
lala~
i know i'm one.
but i just wanna be clear what exactly i think ma
can't blame me too much (:
qianning is not allowed to go out running with me cuz our class is on LOA = quarantined apparently.
which is not good.
cuz i really need to lose the weight.
and i really need to start running otherwise i'll just be walking the next few pe lessons away again.
and soccer is so not my thing puh-lease.
man can they change it back to softball?
softball was so much better ):
lol okay so it's not up to me anyway.
boo.
and the forum aint exactly updating fast enough for me (:
or rather, the forum aint exactly updating interesting topics fast enough (x
last night was.. .. .. ..
yeah.
speechless.
anyway, i got out of it.
unscathed.
hopefully.
ahhaha~
tuesday probably HP with the queens?
yup.
i'm seriously becoming broke.
!@#$%^&*()
2 more weeks before my allowance comes in.
starting to monitor what i put in my mouth.
i've really gotta shed the weight i've put on the past year plus.
so sitting in my fridge..
one packet of merci petits mixed and 4 little cups of yoghurt.
2 low fat 2 non-fat.
right chocolates and yoghurt ==
chocolates.
hahahahahaha.
okay i have a reason for that okay i put one or two chocolates in my mouth after drinking this really bitter medicine.
i need to get that taste out of my mouth see.
otherwise i think i'll just puke.
but i realise the chocolates aint really working.
which is not good.
so i've got to work something else out.
meanwhile the chocolates'll have to do i guess.
don't ask me why i'm on medication again - don't feel like explaining.
long story ahhaha~
but yeah, i think i'm coming down with a cough.
which is not good at all.
i don't like coughs.
they interupt me talking.
and then i can't talk properly.
i realise i'm a very contradictory person.
as pointed out by qianning.
lala~
i know i'm one.
but i just wanna be clear what exactly i think ma
can't blame me too much (:
qianning is not allowed to go out running with me cuz our class is on LOA = quarantined apparently.
which is not good.
cuz i really need to lose the weight.
and i really need to start running otherwise i'll just be walking the next few pe lessons away again.
and soccer is so not my thing puh-lease.
man can they change it back to softball?
softball was so much better ):
lol okay so it's not up to me anyway.
boo.
微笑使煩惱的人得到解脫，
微笑使頹唐的人得到鼓勵，
微笑使疲勞的人得到安適，
微笑使悲傷的人得到安慰。
微笑使頹唐的人得到鼓勵，
微笑使疲勞的人得到安適，
微笑使悲傷的人得到安慰。
2:48 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
今天心情不錯
放學后發生了一些事 哈哈
不要問到底發生了什麽事
我不會說的
（說了應該會被海扁一頓吧 哈哈）
no it's nothing to do with being on LOA either ahhaha~
in fact i'm feeling really neutral about the whole LOA thing.
no, actually, i rather go to school
lol
stay at home and sleep meh
i'm becoming this really lazy person le lor
tsk
last period of the day was actually where my mood went down though
really don't understand some things
boo
then after that
went library with the queens gossiping
it's after that that i cheered up haha
okay it's alright i don't think anyone will know what i'm talking about and like i said i think i'll get beaten up if people (such as cheryl (: ) know what cheered me up so much ahhaha
it didn't really cheer me up much luh just lifted my mood a bit lor
cuz well 1) it came as a shock 2) i wasn't really that happy to have met such an incident considering i- okay i'll stop here (: just know that i'm on a mission for myself (:
okay whatever i'm not making much sense anymore i don't even know if i'm happy what happened happened i don't even know what it is i want ==
D-U-M-B.
goodnight (:
放學后發生了一些事 哈哈
不要問到底發生了什麽事
我不會說的
（說了應該會被海扁一頓吧 哈哈）
no it's nothing to do with being on LOA either ahhaha~
in fact i'm feeling really neutral about the whole LOA thing.
no, actually, i rather go to school
lol
stay at home and sleep meh
i'm becoming this really lazy person le lor
tsk
last period of the day was actually where my mood went down though
really don't understand some things
boo
then after that
went library with the queens gossiping
it's after that that i cheered up haha
okay it's alright i don't think anyone will know what i'm talking about and like i said i think i'll get beaten up if people (such as cheryl (: ) know what cheered me up so much ahhaha
it didn't really cheer me up much luh just lifted my mood a bit lor
cuz well 1) it came as a shock 2) i wasn't really that happy to have met such an incident considering i- okay i'll stop here (: just know that i'm on a mission for myself (:
okay whatever i'm not making much sense anymore i don't even know if i'm happy what happened happened i don't even know what it is i want ==
D-U-M-B.
goodnight (:
想要嘴唇迷人，
那就試著說些仁慈善良的話。
多吃無滋味，多話不值錢。
犯過錯不必覺得可恥。
相同的，有了過錯也不必恥於改錯。
那就試著說些仁慈善良的話。
多吃無滋味，多話不值錢。
犯過錯不必覺得可恥。
相同的，有了過錯也不必恥於改錯。
12:12 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
yeah whatever like how much do you really know me ==
ch.
you thought you knew me inside out didnt you.
hah. that's where you were wrong.
you thought you thought and you thought.
have you ever asked for opinions?
no.
yeah go ahead and say yes.
whatever.
cuz my opinion aint worth a cent.
if you mistook me, too bad.
if you mistake me now, too bad.
frankly, i don't give a shit anymore.
ch.
you thought you knew me inside out didnt you.
hah. that's where you were wrong.
you thought you thought and you thought.
have you ever asked for opinions?
no.
yeah go ahead and say yes.
whatever.
cuz my opinion aint worth a cent.
if you mistook me, too bad.
if you mistake me now, too bad.
frankly, i don't give a shit anymore.
如果你跟人爭辯、衝突，
可能會得到暫時的勝利，
但卻是一種空虛的勝利，
因為你永遠無法贏得對方的好感。
可能會得到暫時的勝利，
但卻是一種空虛的勝利，
因為你永遠無法贏得對方的好感。
10:49 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Monday, July 13, 2009
一下哭死一下高興死再一下緊張死再來個哭死又多一次的哭死不知道會否再多一次的高興死（希望有 [再一次的高興死] 吧）
他們到底要人家一生中死幾次啊
只有貓才有九條命啊！我們哪來那麼多條啊..
==
他們到底要人家一生中死幾次啊
只有貓才有九條命啊！我們哪來那麼多條啊..
==
蘋果可以在五分鐘內吃掉，
但五分鐘卻長不出蘋果。
但五分鐘卻長不出蘋果。
8:12 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
yup. 13 is really unlucky.
!@#$%^&*()
!@#$%^&*()
多接近大自然，
便會自心底涌生出無窮的愛心。
便會自心底涌生出無窮的愛心。
6:59 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
i know what i do best now.
self-deception. (:
self-deception. (:
如果一件事情值得你去做，
那也就值得你多去做。
那也就值得你多去做。
6:25 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
自去年
自本大小姐較懂事後
我對自己的眼淚，可說是無比自私的。
not that it's something to be proud of anyway.
ahhaha~
just that if i ever really cry, it'll be because a) 我真的捨不得 or b) 我真的很難過 or c) 我真的超生氣的
yeah that should be about it.
teehee~
自本大小姐較懂事後
我對自己的眼淚，可說是無比自私的。
not that it's something to be proud of anyway.
ahhaha~
just that if i ever really cry, it'll be because a) 我真的捨不得 or b) 我真的很難過 or c) 我真的超生氣的
yeah that should be about it.
teehee~
知識是從刻苦勞動中得來的，
任何成就都是刻苦勞動的結晶。
任何成就都是刻苦勞動的結晶。
5:46 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Friday, July 10, 2009
yay i win.
i'm hungry, i've got gastric pains, yet i wanna puke.
that's a freaking weird feeling.
puked one round.
and going off for another.
yayness~
i'm hungry, i've got gastric pains, yet i wanna puke.
that's a freaking weird feeling.
puked one round.
and going off for another.
yayness~
一旦第一個鈕扣沒扣好，
就不能把其他的扣好。
就不能把其他的扣好。
12:25 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
some people should really use their heads a little.
certain opinions are supposed to be kept to yourself and not announced to the world as though they're something to be proud of.
because they're not.
certain opinions are supposed to be kept to yourself and not announced to the world as though they're something to be proud of.
because they're not.
斧頭雖小，但多劈幾次，
就能將堅硬的樹木伐到。
就能將堅硬的樹木伐到。
8:21 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
oh man this sucks i left a tag on this forum and they think i'm supporting whoever they're supporting now.
when i'm not doing that i was only saying hi and blablabla (okay it's all way too complicated to explain properly here).
yeah.
as a newbie.
noob-ie.
whatever.
so yeah, even if i'm considered to be supporting anyone i'm the kind who 一挺就全都一起挺到底的好不好 ==
and the thing is i never ever take sides etc.
shoot.
and i can't say anything in case i get flamed and stuff.
see.
i knew i should have kept my mouth shut.
curiosity kills the cat.
when i'm not doing that i was only saying hi and blablabla (okay it's all way too complicated to explain properly here).
yeah.
as a newbie.
noob-ie.
whatever.
so yeah, even if i'm considered to be supporting anyone i'm the kind who 一挺就全都一起挺到底的好不好 ==
and the thing is i never ever take sides etc.
shoot.
and i can't say anything in case i get flamed and stuff.
see.
i knew i should have kept my mouth shut.
curiosity kills the cat.
讀書而不思考，等於吃飯而不消化。
11:18 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
10:10 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
原來也有人和我有一樣的想法嘛
只是那個人比我.. extreme? i don't know what's the word to use.
but anyway. yeah. 這個人比我來的勇敢
至少這個人已向夢想踏出了第一步
i suck.
lol.
只是那個人比我.. extreme? i don't know what's the word to use.
but anyway. yeah. 這個人比我來的勇敢
至少這個人已向夢想踏出了第一步
i suck.
lol.
鳥兒美在羽毛，人們美在勤勞。
4:50 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
凡事都得用心去體會 (:
只有懶惰是懶人的專利，
世上豈有不勞而獲的東西。
今天的光陰你不會把握，
猶如今天有錢卻買不到東西的可悲。
世上豈有不勞而獲的東西。
今天的光陰你不會把握，
猶如今天有錢卻買不到東西的可悲。
11:09 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
心情.. 好複雜。
不過，有一點還是能確定的 -
本大小姐最不喜歡被利用的感覺。
這幾個晚上老在做夢
不是噩夢
是美夢
哈哈
不過，要實現它們..
hmm..
我也不知道可以嗎
都說了：世上無難事，只怕有心人
哈哈
不過還真的有點困難
有的事情不在我們所能控制的範圍內
最近真的好想做某件事
可是.. 勇氣就是不在。
也不能怎麼辦嘛
A水准會考就在明年
這兩年只有用功 + 努力 + 再用功 + 再努力K書。
其餘的，只有等會考後再做決定
但，光陰似箭
時間一旦過了，再怎麼努力地想抓住它的尾巴，也是沒用的
一年一年地過去了
我的理想，也好像跟了我蠻久了。
但我又能做什麽？
我的人生..
悲哀。
不過，有一點還是能確定的 -
本大小姐最不喜歡被利用的感覺。
這幾個晚上老在做夢
不是噩夢
是美夢
哈哈
不過，要實現它們..
hmm..
我也不知道可以嗎
都說了：世上無難事，只怕有心人
哈哈
不過還真的有點困難
有的事情不在我們所能控制的範圍內
最近真的好想做某件事
可是.. 勇氣就是不在。
也不能怎麼辦嘛
A水准會考就在明年
這兩年只有用功 + 努力 + 再用功 + 再努力K書。
其餘的，只有等會考後再做決定
但，光陰似箭
時間一旦過了，再怎麼努力地想抓住它的尾巴，也是沒用的
一年一年地過去了
我的理想，也好像跟了我蠻久了。
但我又能做什麽？
我的人生..
悲哀。
想要做一件事，
最好的方法就是立刻去做。
最好的方法就是立刻去做。
12:35 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Monday, July 6, 2009
emo~
未讀完一卷，絕不讀別的書；
讀完書而未瞭解其中的重點，
絕不讀其他的書。
讀完書而未瞭解其中的重點，
絕不讀其他的書。
9:44 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
剛剛在想
如果某人有一天真的去世的話
我會如何反應
雖然我們互不相識、互不認識
雖然那感覺可能真的不在了
應該還是會哭吧
糟糕與否，那我就不知道了
哈哈
白癡
怎麼在咒人家啊
如果某人有一天真的去世的話
我會如何反應
雖然我們互不相識、互不認識
雖然那感覺可能真的不在了
應該還是會哭吧
糟糕與否，那我就不知道了
哈哈
白癡
怎麼在咒人家啊
讓我們不尋求被安慰，而是安慰別人；
不尋求被瞭解，而是瞭解別人；
不尋求被愛，而是去愛人。
不尋求被瞭解，而是瞭解別人；
不尋求被愛，而是去愛人。
8:23 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
這世界上到底還有多少人不能信啊？
本以為是成功，
未料竟是失敗；
這就是人類的情形，
即使有完善的計畫，
也可能會出錯。
本以為是成功，
未料竟是失敗；
這就是人類的情形，
即使有完善的計畫，
也可能會出錯。
1:12 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
my body's been pretty considerate to me this week.
pretty nice.
i think.
except for the minor allergy to dust from i don't know what that plagued me on monday.
teehee~
as long as i don't get cramps over the weekends.
(:
pretty nice.
i think.
except for the minor allergy to dust from i don't know what that plagued me on monday.
teehee~
as long as i don't get cramps over the weekends.
(:
驕傲的人，常被社會認為愚蠢，
正如發光的流星，當它隕落在地上，
看來也不過是一塊石頭而已。
正如發光的流星，當它隕落在地上，
看來也不過是一塊石頭而已。
12:41 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
cheryl brought up a really good point.
we never know who we can trust.
right, so with the absolute thing i just talked about, i shall alter this sentence.
there are some people we think we can trust who turn out to be the ones we can't.
yeah whatever i never said my english is good.
oh.
i hate it when people say their language is superb.
or pretends to have a very good command of whatever language they speak.
or when they say they don't like people who pretends to be damn pro in their languages who try and type proper words and sentences when they obviously can't form one proper sentence WHEN these people aren't very good themselves.
or when people criticise others' language when that person did nothing to offend them.
it's like, you say you don't like people pretending their language is fking good maybe it's better to just be yourself and type flawed sentences AND THEN YOU TRY AND TALK IN A MANNER THAT YOU THINK SHOWS HOW GOOD YOUR LANGUAGE IS. BUT! hey have you thought, what about these people may just be (INNOCENTLY!) trying to improve their command of the language? what about, check your attitude? sure maybe you meant well but your words may come out the wrong way? say maybe you'll say fine then ignore me nobody told you to bother about me. okay so 1) why are you reading this post and commenting? (: 2) didn't anybody tell you it's bad manners to ignore people? 3) what about, we're trying to help you realise your words are coming out the wrong way they may not be your intended meaning? so you might say eh but how do you know if my words are coming out right how do you know what i'm thinking don't try to act pro okay. well, 1) i never said i'm right. (:
right. so. nah there just have been a lot of debates going on in my head out of nowhere i don't know why ==
been thinking a lot about arguments i heard about, and arguments i've been through.
oh qianning let me make amendments to what i said.
i posted 2 stupid posts, not one.
(:
we never know who we can trust.
right, so with the absolute thing i just talked about, i shall alter this sentence.
there are some people we think we can trust who turn out to be the ones we can't.
yeah whatever i never said my english is good.
oh.
i hate it when people say their language is superb.
or pretends to have a very good command of whatever language they speak.
or when they say they don't like people who pretends to be damn pro in their languages who try and type proper words and sentences when they obviously can't form one proper sentence WHEN these people aren't very good themselves.
or when people criticise others' language when that person did nothing to offend them.
it's like, you say you don't like people pretending their language is fking good maybe it's better to just be yourself and type flawed sentences AND THEN YOU TRY AND TALK IN A MANNER THAT YOU THINK SHOWS HOW GOOD YOUR LANGUAGE IS. BUT! hey have you thought, what about these people may just be (INNOCENTLY!) trying to improve their command of the language? what about, check your attitude? sure maybe you meant well but your words may come out the wrong way? say maybe you'll say fine then ignore me nobody told you to bother about me. okay so 1) why are you reading this post and commenting? (: 2) didn't anybody tell you it's bad manners to ignore people? 3) what about, we're trying to help you realise your words are coming out the wrong way they may not be your intended meaning? so you might say eh but how do you know if my words are coming out right how do you know what i'm thinking don't try to act pro okay. well, 1) i never said i'm right. (:
right. so. nah there just have been a lot of debates going on in my head out of nowhere i don't know why ==
been thinking a lot about arguments i heard about, and arguments i've been through.
oh qianning let me make amendments to what i said.
i posted 2 stupid posts, not one.
(:
失去一個朋友有如失去一條肢體；
時間可使創傷的傷口疼痛減低，
但失去的朋友永無法補償。
時間可使創傷的傷口疼痛減低，
但失去的朋友永無法補償。
11:40 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
right people say we shouldn't delay others merely because of one person's tardiness right?
well. so what if this person was caught in a jam?
so you say this person could have left house earlier to avoid such an incident.
but the thing is, a) what if the jam started much earlier? this person will still be caught in a jam this person will still be late, right? and b) nobody can predict what's gonna happen next so can you blame this person for the jam? of course not. it's not like the person was hoping for the jam. wait till you get stuck in a jam yourself.
so you say if we expect others to wait for this one person this person is selfish BUT! what if you were the person? are you sure you'll still think the same way and not grumble when people do things without you?
[kae i'm not trying to defend my tardiness i'm just trying to put myself in the shoes of people who are, well, simply late. ahhaha.]
next. we say nothing is impossible. so is it really possible for 2 people to be exactly alike? you say no. but is it possible for everyone to be totally different? is there a middle ground? ahhaha. now none of us knows the answer right? okay you might say yeah there can be a middle ground everybody may not be totally different they may resemble each other in some ways they may be different in some ways. alright nothing is definite nothing is absolute. so what now?
what about, nobody is perfect human beings make mistakes? these are so.. absolute. "i'll love you forever"? see. we can't say this will never happen yet we can't say there are people who can love one person their whole life. we can't say nobody is perfect yet we can't say it's not possible for someone perfect to exist. we can't say all human beings will make mistakes yet we can't say there is any one person who is so perfect he will NEVER make any one mistake his whole life. isn't this all so confusing? i'm amazed at the kind of rubbish that goes on in my head when i have not much use for my brain such as when i'm in the shower (: when i should be trying to memorise special angles and transformation stuff. :D but one conclusion i can draw from all these? whoever said all these must be trying to come up with something clever to get away with their mistakes and bla. to make themselves sound right in arguments. yeah and the like (:
ohmygod i'm like contradicting all my own points ==
but it's fun (:
and tomorrow's math.
==
!@#$%^&*()
all good things come to an end. is that then definite? must all good things come to an end? they seem to. doesn't that then render the statement "nothing is definite" untrue? useless? blabla whatever?
bla.
ohohoh.
and then when you say you think you understand someone or a group of people and how they think.
how sure are you that you really understand them?
how do you even KNOW you understand them?
yeah.
i don't really like it when people say "i believe i understand *insert a person's name or a group of people*"
and i just heard someone saying that.
not good.
lol.
i realise i can't seem to free myself from the past.
that should be the main reason of the unhappiness i'm experiencing.
hmm.
so, i've decided not to engage myself in certain things until i am free of them.
them as in whatever unhappy stuff i can't seem to get over.
it's not that i'm trying to escape from the past, neither is it that i'm trying to remove such past memories from my head.
i just wanna get over them and move on. such that they become lessons that i can learn instead of being stuck there forever carrying the phobia of doing some stuff all the time.
quite sickening you see.
and it's darn tiring.
(:
hence! yeah ahhaha.
goodnight (:
tomorrow got math.
then midyears will end.
teehee~
well. so what if this person was caught in a jam?
so you say this person could have left house earlier to avoid such an incident.
but the thing is, a) what if the jam started much earlier? this person will still be caught in a jam this person will still be late, right? and b) nobody can predict what's gonna happen next so can you blame this person for the jam? of course not. it's not like the person was hoping for the jam. wait till you get stuck in a jam yourself.
so you say if we expect others to wait for this one person this person is selfish BUT! what if you were the person? are you sure you'll still think the same way and not grumble when people do things without you?
[kae i'm not trying to defend my tardiness i'm just trying to put myself in the shoes of people who are, well, simply late. ahhaha.]
next. we say nothing is impossible. so is it really possible for 2 people to be exactly alike? you say no. but is it possible for everyone to be totally different? is there a middle ground? ahhaha. now none of us knows the answer right? okay you might say yeah there can be a middle ground everybody may not be totally different they may resemble each other in some ways they may be different in some ways. alright nothing is definite nothing is absolute. so what now?
what about, nobody is perfect human beings make mistakes? these are so.. absolute. "i'll love you forever"? see. we can't say this will never happen yet we can't say there are people who can love one person their whole life. we can't say nobody is perfect yet we can't say it's not possible for someone perfect to exist. we can't say all human beings will make mistakes yet we can't say there is any one person who is so perfect he will NEVER make any one mistake his whole life. isn't this all so confusing? i'm amazed at the kind of rubbish that goes on in my head when i have not much use for my brain such as when i'm in the shower (: when i should be trying to memorise special angles and transformation stuff. :D but one conclusion i can draw from all these? whoever said all these must be trying to come up with something clever to get away with their mistakes and bla. to make themselves sound right in arguments. yeah and the like (:
ohmygod i'm like contradicting all my own points ==
but it's fun (:
and tomorrow's math.
==
!@#$%^&*()
all good things come to an end. is that then definite? must all good things come to an end? they seem to. doesn't that then render the statement "nothing is definite" untrue? useless? blabla whatever?
bla.
ohohoh.
and then when you say you think you understand someone or a group of people and how they think.
how sure are you that you really understand them?
how do you even KNOW you understand them?
yeah.
i don't really like it when people say "i believe i understand *insert a person's name or a group of people*"
and i just heard someone saying that.
not good.
lol.
i realise i can't seem to free myself from the past.
that should be the main reason of the unhappiness i'm experiencing.
hmm.
so, i've decided not to engage myself in certain things until i am free of them.
them as in whatever unhappy stuff i can't seem to get over.
it's not that i'm trying to escape from the past, neither is it that i'm trying to remove such past memories from my head.
i just wanna get over them and move on. such that they become lessons that i can learn instead of being stuck there forever carrying the phobia of doing some stuff all the time.
quite sickening you see.
and it's darn tiring.
(:
hence! yeah ahhaha.
goodnight (:
tomorrow got math.
then midyears will end.
teehee~
我什麼東西都有，
我也什麼東西都沒有；
雖然我什麼東西都沒有，
但我卻什麼東西都不缺乏。
(okay this last sentence.. a bit untrue? i don't know ahhaha. i lack material wealth i guess. right who doesn't. ahhaha~)
我也什麼東西都沒有；
雖然我什麼東西都沒有，
但我卻什麼東西都不缺乏。
(okay this last sentence.. a bit untrue? i don't know ahhaha. i lack material wealth i guess. right who doesn't. ahhaha~)
9:02 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
最近老在想些有的沒的
明明正處於考試期間，怎麼還去想那些對考試沒什麼幫助的問題啊
==
最近覺得，自己想幹嘛就應該去做
真的好怕自己會有什麽遺憾
可是，沒膽量，有什麽辦法嘛，對嗎？
唉。真沒用。
或許，做什麽事，不在乎成績，只在乎曾經擁有，只在乎過程，只在乎滿足感，只在乎自己盡了力，只在乎自己快樂滿足沒遺憾同時也帶給了他人歡樂，其餘的，應該就沒那麼重要了吧？
明明正處於考試期間，怎麼還去想那些對考試沒什麼幫助的問題啊
==
最近覺得，自己想幹嘛就應該去做
真的好怕自己會有什麽遺憾
可是，沒膽量，有什麽辦法嘛，對嗎？
唉。真沒用。
或許，做什麽事，不在乎成績，只在乎曾經擁有，只在乎過程，只在乎滿足感，只在乎自己盡了力，只在乎自己快樂滿足沒遺憾同時也帶給了他人歡樂，其餘的，應該就沒那麼重要了吧？
人不論做錯幾次，
只要不失再來一次的勇氣，
必然大有可為。
只要不失再來一次的勇氣，
必然大有可為。
12:22 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
