Ascendant in Libra and Sun in Taurus

Although you seem accommodating, obliging, amiable and willing to compromise, you can also be enormously stubborn and immovable, as discussed below. You have such a pleasant demeanor that you are able to use a combination of charm and bullying to work things out the way you want them to. You are an excellent negotiator.

Sun in Taurus

You are a steadfast and patient soul, capable of tremendous devotion, dedication, endurance and constancy. The ability to follow through and stick with things [uh huh i'm on a project now. a big important one. (:] is one of your greatest assets. Once your course is set, you pursue it tenaciously until it is completed, stubbornly resisting any attempts to sway you from your purpose [despite hurting myself now. bec i rather be hurt now than later, since the longer i drag this whole thing, the worse i'll feel].

You have a very practical nature and want to see concrete, tangible results for your efforts [with regards to my ongoing mission, of course!], and you are not one for spinning wild dreams that are unlikely to come into fruition [precisely bec of this that the mission exists.]. Most of your "wild dreams" have to do with material achievements, well-being and security, for you have a great love of the physical world and you want to experience and enjoy it to the full. Though you will work long and persistently, you also have a strong sensual and comfort-loving side, and you want to enjoy what you have worked for. In fact, you can be enormously lazy at times and have a tendency to overindulge in good food and other earthly pleasures. You also love the beauty of the natural world and probably prefer a serene country setting rather than an urban life style.

At heart your needs are simple and you are easy to please. You have a strong desire for security, stability and peace, and will rarely make changes unless you are forced to do so. You are not very demanding emotionally, though you do crave lots of physical closeness and affection. Because of your faithfulness, emotional steadiness and gentle strength, others often depend upon you for support. Though you hate upheaval and sudden changes, you usually maintain your poise and equanimity. You also have an innate sense of harmonizing with nature, allowing things to grow and unfold in their own time, and the patience to nurture something into being -- be it a garden, a child, or some creative project. You make an excellent mother or father, especially if you follow your instincts more often than "the experts".

You have three major faults: one is your bullheaded obstinacy. The second is your unwillingness to deviate from your safe, predictable routine [which explains my ongoing mission instead of taking the advice of some others ahhaha]. And the third is your tendency to always insist upon realism and undervalue the imaginative, speculative, and fanciful -- in other words, you lack the ability to play with ideas and possibilities, to open your mind to the new [which further explains the existence of my ongoing mission].

Sun in the 8th House

You crave intense experiences and are attracted to aspects of life that are strange, unfathomable or taboo. You may hide your interests or inclinations, except from those who know you very intimately. You are rarely content with yourself and your life, and you have an inner urge to be continually going farther or deeper than you ever have before. You also have a strong interest in social power and the role that money and economics play in people's lives.

Sun Sextile Mars: You can be an inspiring leader of a team or group effort. Your dynamism and energy evokes the same in others, and you see healthy competition between people as a plus. Generally, you enjoy fine health as well.


not bad quite accurate wor ahhaha! i wonder when my mission will be completed. i have a deadline to meet. ):

i need to lose weight.
seriously.
like, 12kg.
i keep wanting to lose weight but i'm like, gaining weight instead
!@#$%^&*()

so my horoscope forecast said i should try to slow down and find peace of mind.
i can't.
i have homework.
lol.

it's not all empty talk
so maybe you think my talking about it means nothing's really gonna happen
think whatever you want
all i know is there's really only that limited pile of shit i can take starting now

if there's really such thing as God or whoever decides our lives and deaths
they should really learn to let only people who want to stay alive and the like to stay alive
they should learn to ask for opinions before determining whether or not to give a person a life
not that i know if they asked for our opinions or not before we came to this world
but thats not the point
people who see no meaning in life, who think they're better off dead, and also, people who are suffering, they should all be put out of the misery of being alive
i dont care if anyone thinks i don't appreciate life
i swear i've tried
so you say maybe i'm not trying hard enough
well, to hell with what you think
all i know is there's no motivation, and it doesn't make any difference
i'm better off dead i should cease to exist
seriously
why did i ever exist

since i'm not appreciated anyway
since it's not gonna make any difference
why the hell should i stay around in this world wasting resources.
what i'm doing now is really waiting for that one trigger that'll give me the courage to jump down from wherever i want to.
try me.

aimless.

some people are just really lucky.
urgh.

time really flies.

blogger is against me seriously.
urgh.

these days this bitch has been getting on my nerves i don't know why.
i don't even know why i ever tried to help her.
i really have no idea.
i think she casted a spell on me so that she can make use of me.
while i wasn't noticing.
you see, my concentration tends to wander off.
it has very itchy hyperactive legs (:
that kinda explains my fringe.
my bangs.
whatever.
yeah.
but now the spell has worn off i'm getting really annoyed.
albeit having not talked to her for god knows how long.
bloody annoying.
i do not understand why i do not listen to advice i do not understand why i have to make myself believe in the good of everyone.
despite having people tell me things.
okay luh, maybe i don't believe in what others say but what i see for myself.
but.
maybe yeah, things are changing.
i'm beginning to learn that some things that people say may just be facts and not biased opinions.
i'm beginning to learn to trust my guts.
it's safer that way i guess.
i need to build up on the ability to help myself.
project Hurt Prevention.
whatever.
i thought she was justm i don't know, like that. not that bad.
no.
she's self-delusional too.
and thinks bloody highly of herself.
omg lor.
no 自知之明.

went out running with qianning again.
my brother tagged along.
i had another diarrhoea.
qianning's pretty used to this zhiyu's-diarrhoea-will-report-at-tenplus-every-sunday-morning regime i think.
lol.
we had fun at the exercise corner after that.
i realise i have very bad arm-and-legs coordination.
they decided it'd be fun to take unglam photos of me and are even considering putting it on fb.
not good.
must pay money de kae.
lol.
but yeah, i think i appeared like some kid who hasn't seen the things i was playing with just now.
the rower thing was fun. lol. i made them play that with me ahhaha~
but now my arms are aching like i dont know what ==
but yeah, i think it's pretty good exercise for my arms (:
i could see little muscles coming out :D
then i went on to the ski walker thing.
i think. not only do my hands and legs coordination suck, i can't really balance myself well either.
then i went onto this cycling thing.
not good. if my hands go fast, my legs are damn slow; if my legs go fast, my hands are like, crawling at some tortoise pace.
yeah and my limbs were like, entangled.
nice one.
so i decided i should just go back to the rower since thats the only thing i seem to be able to do okay and i do need to do something about my arms (:
but yeah qianning and my brother had a whale of a time laughing at me ==
i was trying to do exercises lor.
yuk.
qianning's mummy asked her what she should get for her dad's supper and qianning said 30 (eggs).
cuz she thought her mum was asking her how many eggs she should get.
i think the both of us need to do something about our hearing (:

you know
after careful thought
maybe the whole thing was merely due to habit
so.
i'm pretty sure that whole emo post doesnt really mean anything at all :)
i hope.

i don't even know why i typed that whole chunk of emo rubbish when i was supposed to be doing econs.
==
neither do i know what possessed me to post that kinda junk.
much less do i know what possessed me to allow my aunt and the hairdresser to gimme bangs when all i wanted, really really wanted, was to trim my hair.
so my life is pretty screwed up now.
mugged like shit for econs lecture test, scribbled so frantically, so scared i'll run out of time (and yeah i DID run out of time ==), and what did i get?
i don't know, a comment from the teacher asking if i really revised.
man i was drawing graphs last night and writing the main points down lor.
i'm pretty sure i got most of the points.
okay fine but i can't really link my points together.
right.
kae luh, i'm really gonna face the fact that my econs just sucks.
i can't write econs essays for nuts.
man.
i'm not blaming anyone. it's just me i guess.
there has been an increase in econs homework these days i realise.
haha.
sure, i'll admit i complained. but i thought of how i really can't do my essays, and i shut my mouth up.
lol.
hopefully all these is gonna help me improve?
bla.
i'm a bloody lazy worm.

yeah what possessed me to type what i typed just now.
i don't know.
boo.
emoemoemo.
all i know is should this thing get out i think i'm totally done for.
lol.
maybe i should delete it :D
eh wait. it's not like anyone knows what it's about anyway ==
yeah.
of course nobody knows.
cuz it's my secret.
the secret between me myself and i.
fun~
though it can suck, having to put on a facade, telling everyone the opposite of what you really think.
wait no, part of whatever i've said is pretty true anyway.
haha.
what am i saying.
i've lost myself.
lol.
siao.
go do econs.

my blogger refuses to be revived.

i've really been trying my darned-est to kill that feeling.
trust me. i really have.
i can't help it if it ain't going away.
i want it to go away.
it simply refuses to.
it's been there since last year; do you really think i want that?
i don't even know who you are.
why the hell will i want it to stay?
i don't particularly welcome that kinda feeling you know.
especially this year.
we know what's gonna happen this year.
and then there's promos for me too.
i really really have to do well this year.
who knows what's gonna happen in future.
who knows what's gonna happen a few weeks down the road.
who knows how i'm gonna react to the whole situation.
the whole situation that's so fast approaching us.
i'm busy.
every one of us is.
really really busy.
too busy to be bothered with other things.
especially things like this.
things such as this that aint supposed to exist in my life now.
i just want a peaceful life now.
one peaceful enough for me to get through promos and alvls.
one that has no distractions.
yeah, boring it may be, but i think i've got to secure my grades first i've got to have my future somewhat secured first before i can really concentrate on other things, aint that so?
besides, like i mentioned, i don't even know you.
idon'tknowyouidon'tknowyouIDON'TKNOWYOU.
what's the whole point?
i. just. want. that. feeling. to. disappear.
i don't know you all of us knows what's coming soon so what's the point.
there's no point.
there's not much time left anyway.
there's not much use in trying to do anything is there.
hopefully when what's supposed to come comes, i won't feel a thing.
hopefully when what's supposed to come comes, i'll remain standing, strong, no buckling or giving way to anything.
perhaps when what's supposed to come comes, things'll get better.
maybe when what's supposed to come comes, i'll get better.
and maybe when what's supposed to come comes and goes..
i don't know.
urgh.

i feel as though im living in a dream today i don't know why lol

she disgusts me.
yuk.
oh well. who cares.
it's just until after tomorrow that i don't have to attend practice until after promos anyway.
but really, there ARE people i don't want to take my place when i'm gone.
i'm serious.
if it happens i think i'll get freaking disgusted.

right.
so i've had time to cool, and tried to convince myself to stay.
final decision?
no i really can't do it.
i even told myself cmon it's just another year. less than that even. but no, sorry, i really can't do it.

migraine sucks.

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.

Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore 'why bother?' You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.

uh huh. co has been stressing me out.

i wanna step down.
serious.
and i have more than one reason.
really.
i may or may not participate in ndp, depending on whether huiqi is participating.
so if i do it'll be my last performance.
really really really.
i think liana will make a good SL (:
why do i wanna step down?
1) no sense of belonging.
2) ahtan.
3) my grades.

there's really lit symposium until 5pm tomorrow. it's on the school calendar i heard.

i'm coming down with a flu.
that sucks.
especially with cramps.
had horrible ones today.
and then Headache decided to join in the fun.
so i was feeling really really terrible during gp.
im suspecting tomorrow will be worse.
second day's usually so.
oh i found a pretty good remedy though.
just lay your head on your friend's shoulder.
of course, find one who's tall enough (x
THANKS NOELLA! lol.

i noticed something during break just now
in the midst of the pain i was undergoing
it was really pretty upsetting alright
i doubt anyone noticed what i noticed anyway
and i think they'd think im thinking too much anyway
well yeah i might be, who knows
but whatever it is, oversensitive or not, it kinda upsetted me
so i decided to emo in the classroom
despite it being uber stuffy
haha
lucky i didnt cry
cmon emo+cramp+headache
and i didnt cry
thats quite a miracle

there's a class i feel like taking up.
but i doubt anyone wants to join me ):
there's this thing i wanna go for.
higher chances of nobody joining me though LOL

in conclusion.
school sucked today. (:

你有什么不开心的事？说出来让大家开心一下。

我那么喜欢你，你喜欢我一下会死啊

i like these 2 sentences best.
ahhahaha XD

i realise i've been very very vulgar since last night. ):
more so than usual. D:
ever since i realised no i couldnt finish all my homework last night. aww.
and then we'll have to hand in 4 econs paragraph thing.
i really went into my room with the intention of doing it alright.
and then i ended up dozing off for 40mins. ==

man why do i have a sudden craving for m&m's
o.o

wah fk you're damn shameless and disgusting you know that?

i keep getting this feeling about something.
and i don't think i want that feeling to be true.
boo.

i hope you do realise you're becoming more and more like the person you claim to despise.

why am i suddenly such a mugger ==

apparently this thing is supposed to be funny. i don't really get where they're funny really it's kinda dumb here and there. (:

1、人不犯我，我不犯人；人若犯我，礼让三分；人再犯我，我还一针；人还犯我，斩草除根。

2、我允许你走进我的世界,但不许你在我的世界里走来走去。

3、明骚易躲，暗贱难防。

4、天没降大任于我，照样苦我心智，劳我筋骨。

5、执子之手，方知子丑，泪流满面，子不走我走。

6、红豆不长南国，长我脸上了，真相思！

7、我深信，会有一个男人是为受我的折磨而来到这世上的。

8、西游记告诉我们：凡是有后台的妖怪都被接走了，凡是没后台的都被一棒子打死了。

9、你有什么不开心的事？说出来让大家开心一下。

10、我那么喜欢你，你喜欢我一下会死啊

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eh i finally see what's so funny about them now ahhaha

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