Saturday, February 28, 2009
do NOT make me shoot you.
10:23 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Friday, Feb 27th, 2009 -- Although you may have to deal with someone whose long-range plans are not in agreement with yours, today you are able to see things from a rather enlightened perspective. Instead of allowing your frustration to boil into an unpleasant exchange, you realize that a current difficulty will eventually work itself out.[really? o.o] Naturally, you must remain true to yourself, but relying on your inner strength enables you to put patience ahead of insecurity.
hurh.. not too true leh.. hmm.. Taurus: Put patience ahead of insecurity. right.. hmm..
and then..
Saturday, Feb 28th, 2009 -- Scheduling time for relaxation is essential today, for otherwise you could miss your chance for fun. But even if you figure out your day in advance, something might happen that forces you to alter your plans. Don't bother arguing with the inevitable; it's much smarter to save your energy for something more important.
lol. hmm..
{EDIT\}
this is pretty accurate:
Career:The Hermit
Touchstone:The Lovers
Love:Justice
Things are jarring somewhat in your emotional universe, dear zhiyu! Between your need for clarity, which comes from Justice, and the indecision that the Lovers are generating, there is a conflict of interest which you’ll find difficult to reconcile. While you’ll be demanding stability, firmness and honesty, you’re getting messages and sentiments that are vague and obtuse. No wonder you’re general feeling today is one of discomfort if not distress. At work, you feel like you can’t get a grip on anything solid… The mood of those you work with is uncertain, and no one really dares to make decisions. In the face of this general apathy and inability to take the bull by the horns, the Hermit invites you to retrace your steps and pause for thought. It’s certainly not the moment for starting some new scheme or other. Rather, it’s a time for solitude and reflection…
Get superior guidance for the week, and you'll have a leg up on those around you! it gives insight into love and career.
hurh.. not too true leh.. hmm.. Taurus: Put patience ahead of insecurity. right.. hmm..
and then..
Saturday, Feb 28th, 2009 -- Scheduling time for relaxation is essential today, for otherwise you could miss your chance for fun. But even if you figure out your day in advance, something might happen that forces you to alter your plans. Don't bother arguing with the inevitable; it's much smarter to save your energy for something more important.
lol. hmm..
{EDIT\}
this is pretty accurate:
Career:The Hermit
Touchstone:The Lovers
Love:Justice
Things are jarring somewhat in your emotional universe, dear zhiyu! Between your need for clarity, which comes from Justice, and the indecision that the Lovers are generating, there is a conflict of interest which you’ll find difficult to reconcile. While you’ll be demanding stability, firmness and honesty, you’re getting messages and sentiments that are vague and obtuse. No wonder you’re general feeling today is one of discomfort if not distress. At work, you feel like you can’t get a grip on anything solid… The mood of those you work with is uncertain, and no one really dares to make decisions. In the face of this general apathy and inability to take the bull by the horns, the Hermit invites you to retrace your steps and pause for thought. It’s certainly not the moment for starting some new scheme or other. Rather, it’s a time for solitude and reflection…
Get superior guidance for the week, and you'll have a leg up on those around you! it gives insight into love and career.
11:22 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
omfg i'm really super disappointed with myself.
over something.
yuge knows what but duh she will NOT reveal it.
i regret not going for co today ):
damn tired.
blaa~
7:50 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
so.
you think you're damn pretty do you not.
ya ya sure pwetty gurl.
..
but you know what, even if you are, what's the point when you're nothing but an ugly little bitch wrapped up inside that, ahem, pardon me, oh-so-pwetty body? yup.
so you launched a personal attack on her. well who cares. we've all had enough of everything.
why are you so freaking interested in us anyway. what, secretly in love with us? jealous about us over something? whatever it is there's no need for you to show your interest so openly. -.-
right so i apologised to cheryl. everything over and done with once i do the same to szehim. and everything shall come to an end. i insist on it. it's wasting loads of my time and energy that can otherwise be spent on mugging and elsewhere far more fruitful and important. listening to my friends' problems and things. tomorrow will be a brand new day. don't come spoiling my mood.
{EDIT\}
yup you did advise us to close your blog window. but it's just an advice. why should we follow advice from people LIKE YOU? you have any idea how upset you made her with your personal attack? why don't you try putting yourself in her shoes? what if someone were to say the same thing to you in your face? you have any idea AT ALL how much it hurts her to see you doing all these? when she took you as a good friend when both of you had problems adapting back in secondary school and told you pretty much everything? and what did you do then? you know what you did i'm not going to spell it out for the world to see. so what if i do - you'll just worm your way through with random excuses won't you. close the window to your blog and what? let you roam around and insult others shooting personal attacks freely? no i won't do that. cuz it just eats at my conscience. i know you have none luh. use your brains a little before you do anything why don't you? who started it? well, i was the cause of the problem but i can tell you very very frankly that YOU were the one who blew up everything. who can't control her temper. who can't control the use of her tone. who shouts and says she talks freaking nicely. right. nice. i told you, my tone was bad, fine i apologise, sincerely. take it or leave it. i can't do a single thing if you don't want it. and if you don't want it you DON'T complain. people tell me where i've gone wrong, i listen and reflect after i calm down, and then i apologise wherever necessary, BUT WHAT ABOUT YOU? we tell you where you've gone wrong, you keep insisting you haven't and try and emphasise where i've gone wrong instead. WHY? what's so tough about recognising your mistakes? ch.
you think you're damn pretty do you not.
ya ya sure pwetty gurl.
..
but you know what, even if you are, what's the point when you're nothing but an ugly little bitch wrapped up inside that, ahem, pardon me, oh-so-pwetty body? yup.
so you launched a personal attack on her. well who cares. we've all had enough of everything.
why are you so freaking interested in us anyway. what, secretly in love with us? jealous about us over something? whatever it is there's no need for you to show your interest so openly. -.-
right so i apologised to cheryl. everything over and done with once i do the same to szehim. and everything shall come to an end. i insist on it. it's wasting loads of my time and energy that can otherwise be spent on mugging and elsewhere far more fruitful and important. listening to my friends' problems and things. tomorrow will be a brand new day. don't come spoiling my mood.
{EDIT\}
yup you did advise us to close your blog window. but it's just an advice. why should we follow advice from people LIKE YOU? you have any idea how upset you made her with your personal attack? why don't you try putting yourself in her shoes? what if someone were to say the same thing to you in your face? you have any idea AT ALL how much it hurts her to see you doing all these? when she took you as a good friend when both of you had problems adapting back in secondary school and told you pretty much everything? and what did you do then? you know what you did i'm not going to spell it out for the world to see. so what if i do - you'll just worm your way through with random excuses won't you. close the window to your blog and what? let you roam around and insult others shooting personal attacks freely? no i won't do that. cuz it just eats at my conscience. i know you have none luh. use your brains a little before you do anything why don't you? who started it? well, i was the cause of the problem but i can tell you very very frankly that YOU were the one who blew up everything. who can't control her temper. who can't control the use of her tone. who shouts and says she talks freaking nicely. right. nice. i told you, my tone was bad, fine i apologise, sincerely. take it or leave it. i can't do a single thing if you don't want it. and if you don't want it you DON'T complain. people tell me where i've gone wrong, i listen and reflect after i calm down, and then i apologise wherever necessary, BUT WHAT ABOUT YOU? we tell you where you've gone wrong, you keep insisting you haven't and try and emphasise where i've gone wrong instead. WHY? what's so tough about recognising your mistakes? ch.
9:29 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
some people just have no idea do they?
now now now, who said anything about baby fats?
i believe i was talking about the childish immature aspect of a baby.
the one that is NOT cute at all.
guys? who's interested in guys now? i didn't know anyone knew any guys who are cute. lousy tastes perhaps? yup.
wait you helped find the book?
uh, who gave the idea?
you?
right.
i didn't know you were the chongzhiyu who went to the lowhuiqi to tell her hey tell them i'll go to the library to borrow kinglear.
i really didn't know that.
all you did was run to the library to get the book.
what if the suggestion didn't surface? -.-
who was the one who wanted an apology from anyone?
cmon man, check all the posts.
sorry hor, i don't need any apology from people like you.
and i'm freaking glad you realise you were showing attitude first when you came to talk. cuz i've got witnesses around.
nice? who's the one being nice here? ch. nice. you have no idea.
oh man pam i'm starting to rethink things i thought i should do. -.-
man why am i coming here to join in the stupid immature hustle and bustle of babies that nobody likes? tsk. seriously you know, what is so hard about facing what you did wrong -.- i did didn't i it's just hard to find the courage to apologise -.-
{EDIT\}
hohoho come see my blog? harlow who posted those things first -.-
and you know, if you aren't happy about stuff i talk about you can always refrain from coming here and reading my stuff. it's MY blog, not yours. ENDLESS RANTS. know what rants and raves are? check up the dictionary. why control my freedom of speech -.- can't you just let me rant get over things and apologise? no. -.-
{EDIT\}
ohohoh before i forget again, why do people always say things like i'm not gonna be a busybody and then move on to kaypoh about others' stuff (like say, academics, for example) again? -.-
now now now, who said anything about baby fats?
i believe i was talking about the childish immature aspect of a baby.
the one that is NOT cute at all.
guys? who's interested in guys now? i didn't know anyone knew any guys who are cute. lousy tastes perhaps? yup.
wait you helped find the book?
uh, who gave the idea?
you?
right.
i didn't know you were the chongzhiyu who went to the lowhuiqi to tell her hey tell them i'll go to the library to borrow kinglear.
i really didn't know that.
all you did was run to the library to get the book.
what if the suggestion didn't surface? -.-
who was the one who wanted an apology from anyone?
cmon man, check all the posts.
sorry hor, i don't need any apology from people like you.
and i'm freaking glad you realise you were showing attitude first when you came to talk. cuz i've got witnesses around.
nice? who's the one being nice here? ch. nice. you have no idea.
oh man pam i'm starting to rethink things i thought i should do. -.-
man why am i coming here to join in the stupid immature hustle and bustle of babies that nobody likes? tsk. seriously you know, what is so hard about facing what you did wrong -.- i did didn't i it's just hard to find the courage to apologise -.-
{EDIT\}
hohoho come see my blog? harlow who posted those things first -.-
and you know, if you aren't happy about stuff i talk about you can always refrain from coming here and reading my stuff. it's MY blog, not yours. ENDLESS RANTS. know what rants and raves are? check up the dictionary. why control my freedom of speech -.- can't you just let me rant get over things and apologise? no. -.-
{EDIT\}
ohohoh before i forget again, why do people always say things like i'm not gonna be a busybody and then move on to kaypoh about others' stuff (like say, academics, for example) again? -.-
10:27 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Wednesday, Feb 25th, 2009 -- You may not feel very fun-loving today because unchangeable circumstances require you to take a long, hard look at what's going on. Even if you try to present a lighthearted appearance to others at first, you won't likely be able to hide your serious attitude. Being concerned about doing what's right may be admirable, but you really don't have to rain on your friend's parade to make your point.
pretty true wor. hmm.. so tomorrow's:
Thursday, Feb 26th, 2009 -- As the day progresses, you might become weary of your worldly responsibilities and long for some peace and quiet away from others. Although you truly desire solitude, you are not particularly lazy now. Others may not be able to see how much energy you are actually expending, for you may limit your activity to the realms of imagination and fantasy. This is not a waste of your time; what you dream about today may happen tomorrow.
blaa~ damn tired luh hai :\
siao i don't feel like saying a lot of things here. boo.
my hamster damn fierce. have to go scold her again. tsk. squeaksqueaksqueak for nothing. TSK.
agape was interesting today. saw people donating like literally bags and bags of blood. damn scary. daren't touch the bags. cuz well.. it's blood. afterall. at our body temperature leh. i realise after today that i've never been good at touching things related to a living thing.
somehow i'm really looking forward to CABIN camp haha~
don't feel like attending school tomorrow :\ 90mins of gsc 90mins of gp. siaoness. but lit.. hai~ and i promised to accompany christella during her break tomorrow. boo ): i need cheering up. and courage.
pretty true wor. hmm.. so tomorrow's:
Thursday, Feb 26th, 2009 -- As the day progresses, you might become weary of your worldly responsibilities and long for some peace and quiet away from others. Although you truly desire solitude, you are not particularly lazy now. Others may not be able to see how much energy you are actually expending, for you may limit your activity to the realms of imagination and fantasy. This is not a waste of your time; what you dream about today may happen tomorrow.
blaa~ damn tired luh hai :\
siao i don't feel like saying a lot of things here. boo.
my hamster damn fierce. have to go scold her again. tsk. squeaksqueaksqueak for nothing. TSK.
agape was interesting today. saw people donating like literally bags and bags of blood. damn scary. daren't touch the bags. cuz well.. it's blood. afterall. at our body temperature leh. i realise after today that i've never been good at touching things related to a living thing.
somehow i'm really looking forward to CABIN camp haha~
don't feel like attending school tomorrow :\ 90mins of gsc 90mins of gp. siaoness. but lit.. hai~ and i promised to accompany christella during her break tomorrow. boo ): i need cheering up. and courage.
9:19 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
okay another post to post stuff about nice people.
we shall not put something nice and something not nice together.
so i heard swetha's leaving.
hai.
sheena hazique and swetha, CHEER UP KAE?
cmon sheena & hazique, you still have mingyao and me!
:D
okay i'll be back later.
damn busy babysitting now.
aww~
OH MAN I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY SPENT TIME ENTERTAINING BABIES WHO ARE ONLY CLAMOURING FOR ATTENTION?
SINCE WHEN DID I PARTICIPATE IN SUCH IMMATURE STUFF.
-.-
okay i've really got to take a chill pill man.
never mind.
i'm sure my dear juniors will cheer me up on friday :D
and we'll have my darlings with me so, why care about what other people think, right?
(:
okay luh, so maybe i DO have to apologise to cheryl sally and huiqi too, but only if i came across harsh in the previous post or while we were talking.
i really don't believe in talking while we're all in a rage.
but to them, that's all i'm apologising for.
just in case they really don't know i'm the kind who hates talking to anyone while they're in a fury or i myself am angry.
doesn't solve anything what right?
but apart from that, nothing else.
you have your way of doing things, i have mine.
right, subject closed.
damn tired you know.
haven't stooped so low for so long -.-
but really, i won't hate anyone i won't stay angry for too long.
it's really tiresome to hate someone and anyway it's unhealthy too ahhaha~
never mind.
i so have to go repent on my foul temper these few days.
bla~
not a good example for my kids.
SORRY DARLINGS.
oh well.
at least some things happened that cheered me up.
at least some people cheered me up.
and to all these people, i'm really grateful to you, i really appreciate having all of you in my life (:
THANK YOU!
((:
10:07 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
aww i heard a baby crying today ):
why ah?
don't know leh.
bobian luh babies always do that when they don't get their way right?
(:
you think you were talking to me nicely? :00
ooh that's nice?
wah okay lor so i was super nice?
yup.
(:
i can't do anything if you decide not to like the things i said even though it was in a super nice manner right?
so okay lor.
if that means i was being immature then *shrugs* UP TO YOU.
somebody said i'm the baby wor ):
okay lor~
i don't wanna stoop to their level (:
and really you know, why must people be so kaypoh and butt into things that don't involve them -.-
so freaking lame right?
ya.
(:
oya i don't like kaypohs.
why go read others' stuff, or even go to the extent of finding out random things about other people and spreading it around?
no life.
-.-
and then when they can't find anything what do they do?
they come up with rubbish to spread around -.-
okay lor.
wah shucks why do i keep saying okay lor.
sounds like tuanqi.
-.-
cannot cannot.
AIYA DON'T CARE LUH.
okay luh go ahead and flame me.
i'm pretty cold i need some heat ):
how~~
see luh i shouldn't have showered with cold water at night right?
yalor..
so dumb.
):
eheh does my post sound as baby-ish as i'm trying to make it sound?
:D:D
*puppy dog eyes*
whee~
{EDIT\}
oh man you know what?
some people never clean their ears or even have their ears checked they wanna come blame me for random things wor ):
i mean, canteen so noisy they couldn't hear my apology not my fault right?
aww ):
yalor~
never mind, if you want, i'll do 4 sorry.
sorry on msn.
sorry via text.
sorry in person tomorrow during co practice.
sorry here.
happy?
good.
because i hope you will reflect on your tone too.
and at least i did my best to solve the problem.
you said yourself, we all know best in our hearts what the exact situation was, how it was exactly like, the words exchanged, expression, tone.. etcetc.
but i dare swear, i did say sorry to her.
i never said i'm 101% sure she heard me though.
so you can go out and tell your version of the events, i go tell mine.
but i haven't told anyone except people i really confide in just to let things out of my chest. so yep.
im conscience-clear.
i don't care how different our versions are, because you heard some things, you didn't hear others, i know what i said and what i didn't, all i don't know is whether you heard my apology.
if you were blind to my efforts to make everything right again, i'm speechless.
there.
but no i won't say sorry to you and you because i really don't think i've done the both of you wrong.
right, the BOTH OF YOU.
nope i've done you NO wrong.
the apology will apply only to the girl involved.
so in total i'm giving her 5 sorry.
5 sincere sorry.
5 sincere sorry, when back last year i got no sorry from any one of you for you know what happened.
which i never blamed any of you for because i know it's also partially my fault. (eh wait a min,did i remember my sorry last year? oops [x )
i'm not scolding anyone, i'm just voicing out my thoughts.
and if you're unhappy about it, too bad.
nobody told you to read.
i don't learn?
well neither do you.
for you think everything you're doing is right, everything you think is right.
but then again, who doesn't think that way?
we all have our own set of thinking, we all have our own version of one story, because we all hear some things and not others.
so yup, i'm not blaming any of you.
if you think i am, then seriously, whatever, because you don't know what i'm thinking anyway you'll just be trying to act smart and show you know what exactly it is that i'm thinking when you really don't.
end of story.
i don't want to talk about this EVER AGAIN.
siao i still don't understand what's wrong with talking about things after the fury dies down -.-
eh wait i can't say sorry on msn cuz i never did add her.
-.-
so 4.
fine.
this kinda immature stuff is exactly what i hate most.
i can't believe i'm actually playing along with them. -.-
eh wow i just swallowed a fishbone and i'm totally fine!
:D
so i guess..
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger huh.
yup.
9:52 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Monday, February 23, 2009
i'm pretty sure all these trouble some people have been bringing us are just toughening us up.
not a problem, but a challenge we're learning to deal with that'll toughen us up.
i'm getting tired of you people doing all these stupid things and shooting arrows at us from our backs so why don't we all just come out in the open and you start shooting at us IN FRONT OF US? shit you you're really hurting me alright. cuz you're changing. really changing. i'm still trying to remain positive and telling myself no i'm just being oversensitive but you know what? if you're really changing i can't possibly go on lying to myself forever.
oh and christella?
talk to me.
7:21 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
right damn angry today.
i'm going to try and stay calm and not say anything first, but if they really do something and force me to tell everything, fine, i WILL. that's not a freaking threat. i already have it all typed out and saved as a draft just for the sake of letting things out but bla duh i will post it if people carry things too far. this is damn immature lor please. -.-
i shall make myself calm down like how i used to teach my kids when we deal with unreasonable people. and apparently it was a very good method and people like it ((:
so we shall be nice people and all say OHM with a 30mins meditation and calm down.
or just go sleep.
instead of stooping to the level of these people and argue with them.
and just let them do whatever they want.
:D
but like duh if you go overboard the rubber band will snap too right -.-
so.
you know what you ought to and what you ought NOT to do luh huh (:
you know who you are.
don't let history repeat itself.
you know what i mean.
{EDIT\}
ahhaha stanley just told me to "live the life you want.. your own life.. so dont have to care how ppl think abt you..", directly quoted from him from WLM. so i'm pretty tempted to just go up, tap retriever on his shoulder, and say "harlow guess what i think i might be interested in you byebye." and just walk off like nothing happened. since some people threatened that my reputation will be in ruins anyway. so there won't be much hurt even if i really do that right? ahhaha~ siao -.-
right. back to visit juniors this week :D teehee~
2:12 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
and so cleon suggested i add retriever on friendster last night.
riight.
i think i'll then be known as the psychotic stalker or something if i do that -.-
lol.
but okay, the plan christella and julia gave me wasn't too good either.
bump into him accidentally-on-purpose.
riiiiiiiiiight.
i said if it happens too often he'll most likely get a sensor that'll beep to warn him whenever i'm near so he can run away to avoid me bumping into him.
lol.
but then again i nearly bumped into him quite a few times already. :\
okay that's not the point.
went out with christella and julia yesterday.
lunch-ed and gossipped at bukitbatok's mac after meeting at yewtee before we went off to town.
walked around doing nuts and just talking about random things that can't be mentioned here.
then we had dinner at pepper lunch.
DINNER at pepper LUNCH.
(:
okay that's not the point ahhaha~
and then i took the train home they took 190.
POOR ME RIGHT!? (x
right sot.
i've just decided to speak to somebody about something.
aiya he'll know who he is and what i'm going to speak to him about.. umm.. later. (:
My Love Will Get You Home (Christine Glass)
if you wander off too far my love will get you home
if you follow the wrong star my love will get you home
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if the bright lights blind your eyes my love will get you home
if your troubles break your stride my love will get you home
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if you ever feel ashamed my love will get you home
whenever there's only you too blame my love will get you home
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
If you ever find yourself lost and all alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
credits:
2:16 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
i'm so not gonna hide this:
i'm freaking angry.
with quite a number of people.
yesterday.
let's count.
umm.. 10 or 11 of them.
yep.
nice one right.
didn't burse any blood vessel though (x
who they are i won't say.
bla.
ah okay at least i'm opening up to the class.
albeit really slowly.
lol.
eh but that's a start alright (x
waving hi to them when i see them around in school.
better than last year i guess; i took what, one whole term (i think) just to talk to people (other than jiali huiqi cheryl) in class -.-
so.
yesterday there was orientation with co.
more j1s turned up - that has to be a good sign right? (:
jianhui still isn't helping co, not even as a contract member but well.. i guess we can't blame him either luh. odac's sacking people as acording to him (i quoted him okay), and well.. we don't want to be the ones causing him to lose odac as his cca ma. his first priority :\
guanyue now has a total of 3 j1 members, not counting kairos ones. pathetic. one zhongsheng 2 dizi. percussion is pretty big this year. bigger than last year. good lor.
bla i'm really hoping we can help that zhongsheng girl pick up zhongsheng quicker. syf's coming up and zhongsheng's pretty important :\ my gaoyin suona is still in deep shit. i mean, you don't expect me to grow an extra mouth and 2 extra arms so i can play both gaoyin and zhongyin right? lol.
so orientation was alright, pam got a bit frustrated at the end of the practice but she turned out okay before orientation really started. doris and i paired up and the group we led came in first in the treasure hunt. weili's group came in last even though weili's the overall organiser for this orientation LOL. recorded a video of them doing their forfeit but blaa there's my voice in it i don't like ahhaha~ basically they ran from the point just outside co room on the track to the exercise corner and back, while doing some weird funny hand gestures lol. right in front of rugby and some guys playing soccer ahhaha~ ohOH and i wanna complain about those guys. the whole orchestra was like, standing down there and they kicked the ball damn hard, TWICE, and nearly hit a few of us -.- piak them ah.
i was told 2 nights back that somebody thinks jonathan is twotiming his girlfriend. something like that. and what, uh, he twotimed another girl too. nice one. now i'm wondering if he ever twotimed me cuz if he did, even though we've broken up, i'm pretty sure i'll still look him up and strangle him. i despise being cheated on yep. sure maybe i'm a total idiot you can fool me around and lie to me but once i find out, well, all i can say is i'll.. i'll.. i don't know what but i'm sure it's not very nice (:
so hazique sheena some of the others who participated in CABIN last year from Ambassadors' and I are attending it again this year :D damn happy teehee~ in june.. right before midyears :\ well i guess i'll just have to be a total mugger before and after CABIN (x i know my studies aren't very good but still.. there's this volunteer vacancy at yishun for anyone 16years old and above to teach primary school kids english and math and i'm pretty tempted to take it up. i still miss my kids back in the religious classes i've been taking and i do like interacting with kids see.. unless.. maybe i'll take up teaching religious classes again.? hmm.. blaa~
people who say one thing and do another are super kiampah.
12:35 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
see this:
and this:
nice right? :D:D
sparked your interest?
do me a favour, and click either this:
or this:
credits:
http://www.socialvibe.com/main#/profile/482762
and this:
nice right? :D:D
sparked your interest?
do me a favour, and click either this:
or this:
credits:
http://www.socialvibe.com/main#/profile/482762
6:44 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Monday, February 16, 2009
bla i don't really understand why i'm sacrificing myself this way. hai.
YUGE YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT BUT DON'T COMMENT ABOUT IT HERE PLEASE I WILL SO TOTALLY CRY. GO ONTO MY PRIVATE BLOG.
lol.
it's like, so freaking dead please -.-
i think my stomach hates me or something.
2 days brunch + half a day of dinner
last night i still puke everything out.
this morning 0630 i got gastric pains.
lasted the whole day
got a little better after dinner
and there it came again
wth
angry luh
super frustrated today
1 because i saw retriever up close today,decided he's not as cute as before and hence stopped liking him (or maybe just not as much as before) and became upset
2 because of something else that i really can't reveal
damn 矛盾 luh. hai.
i want a bigbig hug ):
and maybe a good cry to go along
爱不疚.
可否就为我的感受着想那么一次.?
11:08 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
其实很爱你
演唱:张韶涵
离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
反复被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留
credits:
1:20 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
do i think too much, or what?
8:17 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
today's orientation was so-so.
would have sucked if not for something that happened (don't feel like elaborating).
would have sucked if pam didn't wait for me.
would have sucked if i hadn't done something to kill my boredom (x
and hazique + the yearbook just wavered my interest level in ____ by a considerable amount.
(Y)
damn tired.
goodnight.
12:39 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
somehow i feel i should talk about orientation with the class today.
get ready for some rants. :\
oh wait before that,
MY HAMSTER STOPPED SQUEAKING AT ME LIKE SIAO AFTER THE SCOLDINGS I GAVE HER YESTERDAY AHHAHA!
SHE JUST SCRAMBLES TO THE DOOR TO SEE ME AND OBSERVE ME WHEN I COME BACK TEEHEEHEE XD
okay now.
orientation.
so.
class: 09A02
CT: no idea
co-CT: ms zal
okaay~ we have only 2 guys in the class and there's one french guy in school :D somehow the class feels real unfriendly :\ maybe it's just that i'm not used to it yet? yup.
noella huiqi and i kept making excuses to use the ladies and then running off to do something else.
like walk around the school XD
then the final time when we decided to fold stars in the library one ogl (darren, i think his name is) said "wah one day need to go toilet so many times ah" and cheryl went "ya we got bladder problems ma" LOL! so noella huiqi and i created a vainpot-cum-bladder club. it was bladder club at first but since huiqi was being a vainpot the next time we went to the ladies i decided to add the vainpot in LOL! so the rule was to hold a meeting every 5 mins and to make a visit to the washroom every 10mins. and then to make sure something will flow into the toilet bowl every time we make a visit to the toilet cubicles noella decided we have to drink gallons of water. ((: see! very healthy right! :D so noella's pres im vice pres huiqi's treasurer. lala~ okay so then we went to the library to fold stars [noella deciding she fell in love with her doc so she went to the polyclinic to get an mc for the day (: ] and then cheryl went sot with her friends and then some time before we went back to gather she invited maverick into the library with us lol! i wouldn't say the orientation was a blast today lor :\ AND THEN TML THERE ARE WATER GAMES! nice one. i don't wanna play T.T
so recently i realised my appetite's pretty bad. i'm hungry but i can't seem to swallow anything except drinks for breakfast. lunch not really interested dinner maximum half a bowl. no idea why. and i missed 2 doses of my medicine today. nice one.
& finally today i realise who i've mistrusted and who i should have trusted
finally today, i learnt a few truths
finally TODAY, i'm gonna open up my eyes and not be so nice to every single person in my life..
i hope.
hm.
OKAY I SHOULD STILL BE NICE TO PEOPLE RIGHT.
right so.
someone teach me to trust the right person.?
you know..
you're really damn near to my 100% dream lover, if whatever i've been told about you are accurate
just that you're pretty flirtatious
and man, i don't know if you have any ecs, crushes, love interests, exes, or even girlfriend(s)
and the number of exes (wait, include all your love interests crushes eyecandies too) you have
so i can't give you that full marks.
not that you'd care, right.?
cuz we're but two strangers brushing past each other leading our own lives
DD:
i really hope i'm not falling in love with you T.T
9:57 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
i'm pretty convinced my new hamster was a dog in her previous life.
she kept squeaking like mad whenever anyone CAME HOME AND STEPPED INTO THE HOUSE.
-.-
okay or maybe it was just me.
damn noisy luh.
then when i went into my room she was still making a din.
after a while she stopped.
then i came out.
was walking pretty near her cage.
then she started squeaking like someone was trying to kill her -.-
damn noisy lor.
then i went there and was like I NEVER EVEN COME CLOSE TO YOU RIGHT YOU SQUEAK SO LOUDLY MAKE SO MUCH NOISE FOR WHAT TSK.
then she decided to squeak even louder in my face and tried to stand in a more menacing way on her hindlegs (she was already on her hindlegs)
then she nearly fell on her back -.-
i was like, you think you're a guard dog is it -.-
then i decide okay maybe she's hungry (cuz she decided to pick a fight with my older hamster for nothing this morning, waking me up at some ungodly time in the morning when i should be getting as much rest as possible so we separated them both and my brother forgot to leave her food in her cage. !@#$%^&*() )
so off i went to get a dish of food.
i came back and she scrambled to the door still squeaking at me.
-.-
so i sat there waiting for her to shut up.
damn fierce luh.
i never even do anything lor
so my mum decided to help me distract her while i pushed the dish inside in case she tried to escape.
after i pushe it in she stood in the dish still squeaking at me
wtf i give you food you squeak for what lor
so then i decided to ignore her
went to do my own stuff
went out
came back
she decided to stop her nonsensical sueaking when she saw me
then i complained to my dad
she squeaked
i said yala guard dog luh you
she shut up and sat observing me
i scolded her for 2mins
my dad told me not to scold her she'll be scared by me
i was like, she kept squeaking like mad at me today lor of cours ei have to teach her not to be so fierce right.
im super convinced she was a guard dog in her previous life
she really acts like one
apart from the running to the door squeaking at every random person who walks through the house door she stands on her hindlegs the way a dog does.
tsk.
oh well.
omg i'm damn impressed by this thai monk i just saw.
he knew my father scalded his hands (or was it arms o.o) he knew i would have been attached if not for something by now.
and we didn't even tell him anything.
he asked me: got da boh peng you boh? (got boyfriend?)
i said: boh (no.)
he said: le boh si mi chuhk mehng luh. (cuz you don't go out often enough.)
OHMYGOD LORH.
then there were quite a few other things too haha.
he even joked: your school no guys ah?
lol okay lor~
like it's so easy to get boyfriends nowadays especially when there are alvls to worry about :\
okay so basically he's a nice monk he can joke around he's damn pro i'm currently super impressed with him.
oh and he said, after looking at my birth details and whatsoever, that i'm very hoh miah (i should have a good life). but it'd have been better if i were born a guy.
okay..
i'm pretty happy being a girl now ahhaha XD
you know..
from whatver i heard about you..
you're the only one so far who fits into so many of my demands for a guy.
except from that you're pretty flirtatious (which is like, a super big NONO.)
nobody else ever came close.
so.
i don't know what to do now :\
hai~
12:11 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Monday, February 9, 2009
歌曲： Dear Baby
歌手： 王子 小煜 阿緯 小熏 丫頭 小蠻
作詞： 棒棒堂小杰 作曲：棒棒堂小杰
兩個手勾的幸福 描繪愛的角度
想像有你可以依賴呵護
戀愛必聊情節 有我坐守專線
画面美的好甜
在你的世界 畫一個圈圈
赶走 所有 不安的氛圍
Oh my dear baby My baby
不准你放開手(不想放手)
承諾是永久 也請你說出口
My dear baby My baby
就算是十二點過后 也不怕變成空
Dear baby Dear baby
愛你不寂寞 (我不寂寞)
我們手牽手 從日出到日落
My Dear baby my baby
讓愛情比童話美麗
寫下動人的旋律
在你的世界 畫一個圈圈
赶走 所有 不安的氛圍
Oh my dear baby My baby
不准你放開手(不想放手)
承諾是永久 也請你說出口
My dear baby My baby
就算是十二點過后 也不怕變成空
Dear baby Dear baby
愛你不寂寞 (我不寂寞)
我們手牽手 從日出到日落
My Dear baby my baby
讓愛情比童話美麗
赶走 所有 不安的氛圍
Oh my dear baby My baby
不准你放開手(不想放手)
承諾是永久 也請你說出口
My dear baby My baby
就算是十二點過后 也不怕變成空
Dear baby Dear baby
愛你不寂寞 (我不寂寞)
我們手牽手 從日出到日落
My Dear baby my baby
讓愛情比童話美麗
寫下動人的旋律
只有你可以讓我真正了解愛
這游戲充滿無限的殺傷力
完美的比例維系關于溫柔的繼續
Just You And Me
Oh my dear baby My baby
不准你放開手(不想放手)
承諾是永久 也請你說出口
My dear baby My baby
就算是十二點過后 也不怕變成空
Dear baby Dear baby
愛你不寂寞 (我不寂寞)
我們手牽手 從日出到日落
My Dear baby my baby
讓愛情比童話美麗
寫下動人的旋律~
寫下動人的旋律~
courtesy of:
11:29 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
bla i read something that made me lose all my faith in guys, relationships and love.
nice one.
so i'm now one big scaredy cat in this area.
(Y)
never mind.
i've been one since you-know-when.
and we all know we can't blame me.
okay luh we can, cuz i was blind enough to fail to see the kinda asshole he really is.
so.
(:
then why do i still have eyecandy right?
i know.
so contradicting.
tsk.
OKAY OFF THAT DUMB TOPIC.
so freaking girly bimbotic whatever you wanna call it.
INSULT IT.
(:
okay siao -.-
right.
i realise i have like nothing to blog about these days.
somehow all those with co background who came pj decided to go odac.
nice one.
blaa~
don't like odac.
there's this guy.
i don't know what's his name.
so.
whatshisname.
i asked him when odac trials were starting cuz i wanted to drag this little boy WITH CO BACKGROUND (PERC SOMEMORE LOR T.T) to co to listen to ahtan talk (yes i know like !@#$%^&*() right he was talking about his being a kampung boy being born in cck keathong and god knows what else -.-)
so whatshisname decided he's damn good damn zhuai turn to me, "in a while", AND THEN TALK TO HIS FRIEND.
DAMN YOU LUH OI I WAS STILL STANDING THERE CAN !@#$%^&*()
what kind of answer is in a while harlow!?
so i became even more pissed with odac.
and then i told jianhui if it doesn't start in 10mins' time you come listen to ahtan talk first kae?
he happily agreed.
good boy (:
so i said "AHEM! how long is in a while?"
he talked to his friend somemore LIKE I WASN'T FREAKING THERE and when i was about to drag jianhui off cuz i was super angry already he turned around lazily like the pig he looks like and said 5mins AND FREAKING TURNED BACK TO HIS FRIEND. walau!! harlow i'm so gonna whack that guy when i have the chance to. fk damn angry.
so jianhui happily stuck around odac.
!@#$%^&*()
edison qiaohui and jianhui promised to come co after odac trials AND DID THEY?
NO.
nice.
never mind.
!@#$%^&*() YOU THINK 本小姐 VERY 好惹 IS IT!?
so after co i went sakura for dinner.
then this guy, nicholas, called me and asked how many guys there are in co cuz he'll join if there are 5 or 6 guys.
i was like crap nowadays where got so many guys in co puh-lease but still..
i decided to add jianhui and edison in myself and said got 5 or 6 guys in total
XDXD
so he said okay he'll come for the next practice.
WOOTS!~
oya speaking of edison.
another kiampah guy.
walau turned out he's in my og so i asked him that morning "eh you have co background right? you're coming for co trial right?" SUPER HAPPILY.
he proudly burst all my little bubbles and said "ya i have co background but i'm going for odac trials later"
-.-
nice one.
angry.
then i was like WTH!? SERIOUS!? I TEXTED YOU YESTERDAY ABOUT TODAY'S PRACTICE YOU KNOW!?
then he realised ohno big trouble and said "heh heh paiseh (x i'm going for odac trials first. after that i go co okay? ((:"
nice one i angry already please you still odac-first-co-next-okay me.
you good lor.
so i was like, can't do anything either ma right, so i was like "PROMISE!? >:("
he said ya.
i turned to justin and said i don't like this guy seriously I DON'T LIKE THIS GUY >:(
then he hahaha
edison super paiseh
ORBI
TSK.
okay so evil (x
teehee~
10:59 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
nice one i freaking choked on rice.
..
12:11 AM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
人心险恶
人心不可预测 (or is it 难料.?)
知人知面不知其心
these few lines..
i think i'm really beginning to witness for myself how true they are.
oh man..
11:38 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Monday, February 2, 2009
someone tell me: how many people really know all my problems :\
i'm like super depressed now i don't know why
hai
replaying angela zhang's 不痛
fits the mood
i feel like banging my head against the desk now seriously
blaa~
i realise i'm not really one to talk about my problems
and then i bottle them up
and when the bottle overflows i just cry
and get back to life
boo
suddenly i'm asking myself if i really wanna quit co
if i'll really be happier after quitting
i'm not sure leh
all i know is i wanna quit mainly because of ahtan
cuz i really can't stand him
and then i ask myself all this stuff about ecs and whatnot
what exactly's going on inside me?
man now i hate myself
ec my big head luh what ec
someone go lock me up in the nunnery right now PUHLEEASE
gah
the discipline i taught myself years ago ALL THROWN OUT THE WINDOW
i'm so freaking pathetic i find friends who know about nothing in my life and then ramble a load of bullshit to them go mad irritate others and then what?
go back to life.
siao.
might as well grab an empty beer bottle smash it to the ground tada no more problems get back to life RIGHT
what kind of person have i become seriously
freaking pathetic if you ask me
i can't GET BACK UP ON MY FEET
it's like
2 sides of me are arguing with each other, the logical calm self reprimanding my rebellious self
somehow i'm letting the stupid lazy rebellious self of mine get the better of me
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME LUH
hai
dammit i'm just gonna go sleep
really, if i still can't get myself to be more serious i'm really giving up on myself and let myself die a useless person
bla.
10:57 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
my blood is B-O-I-L-I-N-G BOILING.
dammit know your limits will you.
{EDIT/}
我拜托你们提醒我不要再作笨蛋了
i want a nice big hug
9:00 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
man fk cares if my lungs burn and i die.
i'm gonna down 2 cans of ICE LEMON TEA.
NOW.
((:
8:03 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
harlow i spent half an hour dithering about trying to decide whether to pon orientation
in the end i ponned
so dumb
im bored
lala
whee~
JULIA SPILT HER MILO ON ME TODAY LOR
!@#$%^&*()
yuge forgot to bring her keys and is currently locked outside her house HAHA XD
buhbyeeeeeeee~
*butterfly passes*
6:01 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
oh man i realise that last post sounds misleading.
boo.
so.
i wen to my gran's over the weekends TEEHEEHEE~
and there we watched 溏心风暴 － 家好月圆.
and we watched one episode after another.
from morning till midnight yesterday HEE XD
and then today..
they dragged me up at 8am to the temple.
damn smokey.
so smokey i actually teared.
a lot.
twice.
oh man right.
boo ):
but I SAW A CUTE GUY HEH HEH XD
and i drew a lot.
medium lot.
hm.
CUTE GUY T.T
nvm sot.
i nearly went to ask for his number just that i couldn't work up the courage.
cuz he kept looking over to me.
-.-
like WTF I'VE NEVER EVEN DARED HAVE THAT KINDA THOUGHT IN MY HEAD CAN
!@#$%^&*()
okay nvm CHILL (:
it's okay i don't find him cute anymore i've pretty much forgotten how he looks like already HAHA XD
siao. -.-
right so.
my eyes still feel super duper dry T.T
okay.
and then we went home and continued watching tangxinfengbao LALALA
until 3plus when my aunt pulled me to the physician's.
man i forgot to tell him i still get headaches and stomachaches pretty often T.T
blaaaaa
and then he said the temperature of my lungs are really high.
his actual words were: 你的肺很热，温度很高
ya and then i went huh 0.0 at him
i still don't really get what he meant (:
but point is he gave me 2 bottles of pills
(Y)
i'm supposed to swallow like, 7x3=21 pills everyday for 14 days.
(:
nice one.
NO JULIA I WILL NOTGO FOR ORIENTATION T.T
right okay back on track.
so.
I EVEN HAVE TO ABSTAIN FROM SPICY STUFF, COLD DRINKS, FRUIT JUICE AND FRUITS.
wtf have you ever heard of doctors telling you "you can only have one piece of fruit per day max"?
NO RIGHT!?
well i did.
just today.
like, 5+ hours ago.
i totally went HUH AM I HEARING THINGS!? O.O
he said no.
okay lor.
apparently he said due to my condition my ears are a tad warmer than usual.
and the color of my upper lip and my lower lip are different the colour of my upper lip is normal the colour of my lower lip isnt.
OKAY LOR.
frankly i can't really tell if there's a difference in the colour of my lips nor can i tell if my ears are a little warmer.
i actually asked him "really meh? they feel normal to me o.o" when he told me that.
he felt my ears and said ya.
obviously i said okay lor RIGHT.
tsk.
okay nvm.
I WANNA PON ORIENTATION.
8:44 PM.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
zhiyu;
the notCool, notCalm, notCollected.
